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Saturday, January 20, 2018
@ 9:40 PM
좋은 날 더 많기를
hello~!
first blog post of the year and i think i should just start with what i have been doing since i came back from Taiwan.
Well, I would say taiwan trip was a rather eye opening trip and i definitely would want to go back again and stay for an even longer period of time. i think one week was definitely too short and i still have many places i havent explore yet.
I thought things were well with the company which im currently working with and the thing with korea working its very complicated and so right now, im going to find another company. i was really devastated and stressed out actually when i thought abt all these things last week but im ok now. I think there was a night when jungkook uploaded a cover of lee hi's 'breathe' on twitter, i legit broke down after hearing it because it just gave me so much comfort.
i used to think everything would work out fine with this company but there was also a certain point in time when i asked myself if this was really what i feel like doing. i mean it was fine doing the stuff which i am doing but i feel like there isnt much thing for me to explore within my job scope. but right now im also confused and kinda lost as to what kind of job i want to do and it just feels quite meh to start job seeking all over again.
but i think for sure which i realised is that im slowly beginning to understand myself what kind of job im enjoying and what kind of job i like. i think im more into meeting ppl and going out, rather than working in office. of course, sometimes i would prefer staying in the office too but i think im someone who cannot stay in the office 24/7. so right now im kinda... worried too. LOL. as to what kind of job im more suited to.. sigh. i think its really not easy.
im hoping that this is a blessing in disguise. i think maybe god is giving me one more chance to go and explore what i want to do within the next 6 mths before i really settle down on sth. idk what but idk why theres this part of me hoping that some of the dance groups which ive always been following would open up audition soon. sigh... idk why theres this still part of me which still wants me to try out for audition. ever since abt 2 years ago..? wow. 2 years ago. i was kind of staying away from that kind of thoughts of being a bg dancer but i guess that part of me came back. sigh.. why is it so hard~~
i had dinner with jan and princess today and all of us seemed have our own area of concerns. but the interesting thing is all of us admit that korea life seemed way better because we had each other. haha. some may wonder why i would say that. but its true. i dont think anyone would be convinced until he or she experienced it themselves. but i guess its because we have each other thats why we felt like we are not alone. i have to give kudos to bts too. (haha im bringing them up again) but i guess because i feel like there is still sth for me to do here in korea, thats why im still making myself stay there. if not i dont see why too. maybe. im not sure. but right now im just slowly figuring up what i can and cannot do.
it will definitely be another interesting and challenging year. not giving up though. cos its life ^^ and its beautiful despite all this hardships and shit sometimes.
cheers.
Labels: career, dance, god, job, korea, life, taiwan
Sunday, December 24, 2017
@ 9:42 PM
John 3:16
Merry Christmas~
hello.
I suddenly felt that i should write something for christmas. its been too long since i have my own time and i know its kinda sad(?) maybe.. to spend christmas eve alone XD but im ok with it. it just feels strange now that im done with university. i know right... im done with uni. wow.
4 years had just gone like this. and i cant help but say so many things had happened since then. i was only 20 when that began and now id turned 24. and idk.. its just strange that this year had the most ups and downs. but i definitely had enjoyed it. this year made me learn so much abt myself and how i handled situations which im glad it had happened even though it may not be the nicest things.
i think one of the best thing i had learn is to not care about what other people think. it made me so much happier and i guess that's something which really pushed me to where i am now. ok im going to drag bts here. but they were also one of the motivations which made it happen. when i first started my channel, i was planning to vlog outside but i didnt have the courage. right now i just carry my camera not phone. camera! and walk around the street and i dont give a dam abt the looks ppl give. because if you actually think abt it its a natural phenomenon. lol. like u will be wondering what am i filming and what am i doing. i would do the same for others too. so yea.. there's nothing much to care actually.
and i guess i enjoy talking to older people. lol. i realised u really learn a lot when u talk to people from different age groups and thats when u see how that generation thinks differently from you. it made me see how koreans think about certain issues too. i guess i just like learning from ppl around me in real life. communicating with other people is actually very important and precious. ever since my nephew is born the time which i skyped with my sis had decreased obviously and sometimes i kinda miss talking to her too. haha. but i know we are all busy with our stuff. im glad that my mum would always initiate the skype but i guess i should be more active in stuff like that.
yup.. before i fly to taiwan for a break at the end of the year i think i will update one more time. haha. cos i got to do some other stuff now~ hehe. have a merry christmas~ ^^
Labels: bts, christmas, family, god, korea, life
Sunday, August 09, 2015
@ 10:17 PM
나도 너랑 오래오래 가고 싶다
hello.
so the last time since i have blogged was like 3 months ago and i feel like i should at least update on my life even though im pretty sure no one really reads my blog anymore. but its ok. its just for memory sake so next time when im bored and i looked through the archives i will be like oh~! i did this when i was younger. haha but anw yea.
today is the 50th birthday of singapore my lovely country and im proud to say that i am a citizen of singapore. although i left singapore about 3 years ago, the absence of the singapore vibe and feels definitely made me miss my home country alot more ever. singapore is really a fine and nice place and i will definitely return back home. ha... people always ask me where will i go after i graduate from ku and i always tell them i will wanna work for a few years in korea and see how it goes if things are not so good i will return back to sg. but honestly honestly... i have no idea. not really sure. ive kinda been confused about which direction i want to go in the media industry.
yes i do like script writing and stuff but it does not drive me as much as it did in the past. ive talked to many of my friends about it and i want to work in the dance media industry. lol. filming dance videos and stuff like that, holding and organising events. maybe not really organising but kinda like those fields. lol.
anw enough of my future issues. about 3 days ago was also my first ever bf's birthday and i am proud to say that i made him sth which took me 3 hours and the end product was pretty nice. lol. i stupidly did not take a photo of it before giving it to him but i will definitely asked him to take picture and send it to me. yup.
and because i feel like i am in a relationship with someone now. ive learnt quite a lot here and there. like how it really means that u are not living alone anymore. like u have someone u have to take care of and u got to commit. haha. sounds really amateur or me but i believe this is really how things work in life. the things u go through and u just have to learn it along the way. and of course im of course thankful for someone who is out there always caring and helping me along the way. ^^ blessed.
its almost the end of the year and im going to be a junior soon. thinking abt that just made me feel that time really flies. like 3 years ago i was still a noob in korean and a teen stuck in her own comfort zone. im of course proud of what i have achieve so far and i just want to thank all the people out there who have been helping me all along. and of course god. thank you so much.
화이팅 화이팅 합시다~ ^^
"And now these three remain:
Faith, Hope and Love.
But the greatest is LOVE,"
- 1 Cor 13:13
Labels: dance, god, korea, ku, life, love, sg50, singapore
Saturday, February 21, 2015
@ 3:24 PM
hello.
its been a so long since i last updated and finally i feel like there is sth for me worth taking down or penning my thoughts.
so its been a long time since i got invited to someone's house and especially yesterday minji invited me to go over to her house for seolnal. 설날 also known as cny. so yea i was honestly excited cos ive nv been to ppl's house for such festival and i kinda anticipated for 떡국. and so took an hour subway ride to her house and then finally met up with her at the station.
she led me to her house and it was already kinda different from the seoul which ive been living in. it kinda felt like incheon for some area. anw its along that feeling and i thought minji is living in a apartment which is equivalent to sg's hdb. but now i was wrong. it seemed like a smaller version of what i had imagined. this is what media does to your collective memory.
i felt kinda shameful at my thoughts. mainly because i thought everyone's financial status is equal or much higher than what i have. but no there are a lot people out there who are less capable than me. i feel blessed that i have my parents who are still paying for my living expenses and here i am spending money as if i earned them. ha..
the thing that im really grateful for ppl like minji is that she doesnt judge you. she doesnt care where you came from. racism and discrimination are still happening in the world and its rare to find ppl like her. the touching thing was that she knew that im alone in seoul, alone in the dorm, just using my computer and passing time and so inviting me for seolnal was like really omg. love her.
and when i went to her house i bought like the korean version box of fruit juice and the sg cny snack that i still havent eaten. and dear shes so cute that she likes it so much haha. i mean of course i will love it when people give me sth from their home country and its sth which they treasure so much so im glad that she enjoyed it. haha. theres this verse which says its better to give than take. sth like that. for that time i felt there is so true. hahaha.
yup. just touched to have friends like minji ^^
anw happy chinese new year~! and less than 2 weeks to school reopen~ TTT no.....
Labels: cny, dance, friends, god, kudt, life, love
Monday, January 05, 2015
@ 11:52 PM
since 2006
hello.
so i basically only left with abit more than a day in sg and the feeling comes again. sometimes before u leave a country not just korea or sg but sometimes when u just travel overseas, theres this 'i dont wanna leave this place' feel. yup. and its happening to me right now. back in korea i was like.. i dont wanna leave korea for sg. and now suddenly im like i dont really feel like leaving sg for korea. sighs. but what can i do.. its life. a life which i chose.
thinking about it we have came a long way. since 2006 we were being placed in 1G2 for a reason and then idk for some reason we still kept in contact with each other. im really grateful for this group of friends with awesome personalities. lol. most of them are returning to australia and i will be going back to korea soon. ha~ awesome and truly blessed~ ^^
and plus today when we went back to crescent we happened to bump into one of the teachers whom taught me back in sec 1 and 4. ha now he's the eng hod! lol. thankful for him for pulling my eng grades that time in sec 4. and actually im surprised by how he actually remembered me! haha. but he messed up our names with our faces. haha. XD but its ok because at least he still remembers. lol.
so yea. gonna miss this bunch of awesome frens~ ^^ and thanks to all those who met up with me during this short trip and im just thankful for the events which happened. both good and bad. i kinda feel that for this 2 weeks stay back home i kinda spent more time with ppl. like. first the passport thing was kinda like a blessing in disguise. i want to believe it is. and so it will be. haha. through that i got to spend more times with my dad and mum individually. i feel blessed to be born as their daughter. and blessed to have such awesome parents. i love them~ and then i got to meet up with my crescent friends which i felt its really great because i only thought about it just now. i have known them for 9 years. and for regina this year is going to be the 10th year i have known her. gotta feel blessed to be with her. thank god for all these amazing people~ ^^
and so yea. i guess god just wanted to take a break from my busy life. dancer life back in korea. and now i guess im prepared to go back? XD haha. im not sure. but yea. i will be back. dancing during the holidays and maybe writing a script for a mini movie project for storytellers. yup. awesome~ cant wait. ^^
i know its kinda late but happy 2015~! i believe it will be busy, crazy, working overload year but we will get through it.
Labels: crescent, dance, family, friends, god, kudt, life
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
@ 11:34 PM
just like the seasons
hello.
so in order rush before the last second before 2014 ends, im gonna rush it through. gonna talk about the highlights of 2014 like what most people usually do before the 12am second strike.
well i guess the most eventful things which happened in my 2014 is KOREA UNIVERSITY. lol. just being a student there changed and allowed me to experience a lot of things which i doubt i would be able to do so back home. i mean its not a bad thing but u know, u just learn stuff out of your comfort zone. ha.
getting into ku, trying to adjust to the different learning environment, trying to make korean friends but still wondering why u dont get to know them and then giving up and realise that one shouldnt force it. cos it will just happen naturally as it goes along the way. and then after which its kudt which kinda honestly changed a lot of my uni life as a student. to be more specific, as an international student. and then there is also the storytellers which i treasure them so much.
we've been through so much and we've always work so hard. sometimes i agree with other people saying that international students actually work harder than the other students because of the language barrier. because of the language barrier we tend to even work harder just because we dont want to come to the losing end as compared to the others. we still want to be treated the same. its never easy and im glad i have them. my lovely storytellers <3 div="" nbsp="">
and i have my bunch of kudt dongsaengs. without them i feel like i would not be able to truly experience the life as a korean uni student. sometimes i feel like maybe they think as me like an alien. lol. like someone who is so new to their culture and hence interesting to them. i make silly mistakes which also allowed them to laugh it off and just really immerse with them. a huge bunch of thanks to them who always helped me out. thanks alot. really. love you guys.
and so in about less than 30mins its gonna be 2015. what do i expect? ha. nth much but just a better me. always striving to live my life to the fullest. dance hard. study hard. play hard. love hard. enjoy life. give thanks. and having faith. and pray.
happy 2015 to everyone out there!
새 해 복 많이 받으세요~! ^^
Labels: dance, family, friends, god, korea, ku, kudt, life, storytellers
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
@ 10:31 PM
i will never let it go
hello.
so im back in singapore to settle issues. issues which i dont wish to talk about on my blog which i havent blogged for so long. but anw ever since i came back from korea which was yesterday i had thought a lot about things.
things meaning life. and priorities in life. being the emotional self again. so as u guys know that i actually got lucky and got picked by kim jong kook to film for running man. i thought about my korean name. i feel like making it official. it may sounds crazy but i really do. i feel like for some people, they just create a korean name because they want to make it easier for the koreans to address them easily and for other people some may take it serious about their name. i guess its both for me. and honestly my korean name 진전애 doesnt really make much sense. mainly 진 jin comes from my chinese surname chen and if say it long enough it sounds like zhen which means 'real' in chinese which then translates to 진 jin in korean. so thats why many of the chinese whom i have met in ku they have the surname 진 as well. and as for 전 i still havent decided on what it should be but most like i will go with the meaning of 'entire'. and 애 obviously love. lol. hence 진전애. entirely real love? LOL. wth am i talking about. i have no idea who that came out but likely it was because that time cheryl tried to make a korean name for all of us and hence from then onwards i have been using that korean name.
so my main point is that i wanna make it official. idk how and if it is even possible but i really do want to make my korean name official. i think i have a lot of attachment and feelings towards that name now. haha. i still like my birth name of course. both are special to me.
and through life. there is just no matter how smooth it may looks it will always be tough and challenging. and i really do believe that god made u go through it to learn from sth. asking me to be kind to be people. people whom i do not know. because honestly just by treating people nice and stuff it really makes a lot of difference. people like it when others treat u nice so by applying the same logic we should be nice and kind to people.
i swear today i was so so so so annoyed by the trips to the embassy but until the ica when it was my turn at the counter the lady was so nice. she kinda lifted my spirit up. honestly. thank god for her. she made me believe in service industry again. sounds dramatic. but no it wasnt. it was really tough. and she was nice enough to explain to me about the oath and passport stuff. thank you.
and if u guys ask why i am being so dramatic and sensitive over this issue, its because as u guys know. because of kudt. yes. im not lying. i dont want to lose them. if i lose them i lose 2 of the most precious things in my life. i admit i have someone im interested in dt and i feel like i will lose them. i am scared. still scared. its so scary how love drives one person crazy.
and just now my mum asked me when i will come back longer for holidays next time. when i will stop dancing. for that moment i felt kind of hurt. i mean i obviously do want to stay longer back home with my family but dancing is another thing. im sorry. some may not get me. ha. both are as important to me. i sound crazy. 시발 난 미친년같애. 존나 울고 싶다.
i just prayed that for once things will go in the right way.
have a happy christmas everyone.
Do not let your hearts be troubled.
Trust in God; trust also in me.
John 14:1
Labels: dance, family, friends, god, kudt, life
Tuesday, December 09, 2014
@ 9:23 PM
alive. not dead.
KUDT 사랑합니다.
죽어도 안나갑니다.
이제 나는 디티 17기 힙합입니다.
Labels: 17th, dance, god, kudt, life
Saturday, October 25, 2014
@ 6:23 PM
hello. since it is
the end of exams and it has been a long time I am taking down to actually pen
down my thoughts. This happened to me
and a rather good friend of mine and makes me rethink about my life aims and
passion for a moment.
Is dance
really gonna be like a useless thing for me in the future? Obviously to me the
answer is no. But some people I believe its more like what they can do about
dance in the future. Is it purely just going to be their passion or is it
possible to actually transform and make it into their career? Career is
something which you can continue to do
for a long time until you retire and that is what I wish dance would be for me.
Its never going to be easy and its going to be super hard but you will never
know unless you try it.
People tell
me that dance wont feed you. It will not give you love. It will not find you a
boyfriend. It will not give you good grades. It will not give me energy. And
well, the list goes on. Its true that dt its eating most of my time in school
but I’ve always try to keep it a balance between academics and dance. Both are
important to me. And to add on, now that i have received the scholarship, my
aim is now to maintain the scholarship as well as to keep dancing. I mean then
again dance has always been a platform for me kind of release my stress and
keep me going. So I don’t think I will even have the idea of letting it go.
Nope. No way. And never.
Haha. I
don’t know why just this thoughts have been in my mind ever since my friend of
mine told me about it. And recently its just been really busy. Plus I just
found out recently that kudt’s annual dance concert will be held on dec 6th~!
Jjang jjang~! Haha. Omg. And the place is going to be at Gangnam theatre
hall~!!! Gangnam~~~~ woa.~ it’s the place where defdance held their concert the
other time as well. That place is really really good and I cant believe im
gonna perform there~! Lalalala~ imma happy~ omg.
Yesterday
Gwanghwi sunbae posted an announcement whereby hes looking for dancers to
perform in his most probably last annual kudt concert. TT I feel like I still
haven’t gotten close to him yet and hes gonna most probably start his career
and work and hence no more time to really dance. Dam. TT anw I applied for it
and gonna go through an audition for it before he actually decides if he really
wants me to be inside. LOL. But hopefully things will turn out well and I can
do his dance as well as minkyeong sunbae’s dance.
Yup. Gonna
see the electric flower later with dixxon and then head over to myeongdong to
meet lugongxuan and iris~! Its been so long since I met them~! ^^
Labels: dance, god, korea, ku, life
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
@ 7:59 PM
hello.
so its been so so so so so long since i last blogged. first thing is that my com screwed up and i couldnt get the internet unless i have wifi. so as u guys know the internet i use on my com in the dorm is through lan cable wire. and apparently after my com kinda died, i couldnt do much stuff and i cannot really use my com. so it wasnt a very good thing. to start of im just gonna say that one of the main few events which had happened in the past 2/3 weeks were ku vs yonsei games, goyeon jeon and then my birthday and another good news~ hahahahha.
so as u guys know i have been preparing for dt freshmen dance and finally im so glad that everything turned out so well~ and the good news is that for the first time in history, ku won all 5 games against yonsei. i attended the baseball as well as the basketball match. omg i swear the basketball match was so good. and im glad to say that a fren from dt gave me the basketball ticket. without her ticket i think i will just be so sad. its really awesome. i think the thing so amazing about goyeonjeon is that everyone will jump up from their seat whenever someone scored. and then we will start singing the bam bam bam bam victory song. haha. it was so fun.
and because on the 2nd day of goyeonjeon i couldnt watch either the rugby or soccer match because i had to be in sch by 2pm for the dance battle at night, i was streaming the rugby live and i got so excited watching it back at the dorm. lol. i still remembered the times when i was watching the ac rugby match back then in ac. haha. so much memories. hahahahaha. and i didnt know for rugby u have free kick too. LOL. but anw yea. and then when i was in the student union building, the dt kids were streaming live and then we were like doing the bam bam bam bam victory cheer when the soccer players scored. haha. so fun. and yea. and then we kinda prepared for the dance battle and made our way to infront of macs.
its so cool how like the entire road of anam is blocked and then the good thing is that shops and restaurants will give out free food as its goyeonjeon. this is best thing ive ever known so far in uni. i mean like come on, the entire street giving out free food. hahahaha. and for me i managed to get a free cup of my beloved bubble tea. so im like hur hurhur~
and then finally it is 7pm and the dance battle began~ it began with the yonsei freshman first and then after that it was kudt's turn! haha. i just felt that everything was so bam~! like its been so long since i last performed performed in a sense so it was rather cool and refreshing. and to add on its like the audience and crowd were so close to you. they were screaming and cheering for u until the extent that u cannot really hear the music. haha. type kudtdancers on yt and the videos will come out ^^
after that it was more like a public street performance. theres a lot of ppl watching and i just stayed there and watched the rest of the performances. i gotta say it was a rather awesome experience and i just felt like theres so many good and amazing dancers out there and i got to work harder to improve my skills. haha. i think for the rest of the remaining years in ku i will just focus on studying and dancing. hahahaha.
since my bdae was kinda overlapped with goyeonjeon in a sense, the dt kids celebrated for me when we were eating samgyupsal at the end of the dance battle. at least i gotta say that im lucky and they did not give me weirdly mixed drinks. it was bearable. lol. anw and yea. thanks so much to the storytellers for surprising me suddenly and before the kpop class. haha. thank you!!!
and another thing i wanna talk about is that fact that i received scholarship from ku!!! yay~!!! :D haha. i really didnt thought i will get it because its been like so long the 2nd semester had began and i didnt know that they had problems with screening and everything. im so glad that everything turned out so well. just thank god for everything. but now i just feel so stress that i have to maintain my gpa. sigh... i feel that getting A is so hard.
today was my last day for mid terms and i think i screwed up brain science so badly. and im so scared for my grades now. i think its god slapping me, telling me to wake up and continue to study harder. im gonna continue getting this academic excellence scholarship so gonna work hard!! its never gonna be easy because of kudt and struggling with studies but i think thats what make school life fun. i think ever since crescent i have been through this kind of balance. o level and crescent dance. a level and ac dance. and now ku with kudt. haha. its so interesting. and i really felt like there's this sense of accomplishment whenever i do well in both academic area and in dance. makes me feel like an all-rounder. hahahaha. ok. i will definitely try and work hard and pull up my grades. dam it. i really need to get a gpa of at least 4.0. i can do this!! hwaiting!!!
and i think from tmr onwards or sth i can finally go and dance and choreograph this dance. kyeongho and i had decided to choreograph a dance together and perhaps film it? haha. im not sure stilll whats the final plan but we will definitely release and film it yay~! but no inspiration for moves. haha. hopefully i will come out with steps soon. hehe~ ^^
Labels: all kill, birthday, dance, friends, god, ku, kudt, scholarship, 고연전
Monday, September 08, 2014
@ 10:12 PM
being international in korea
hello.
so today is chuseok and chinese's mid autumn festival. went to the hanriver with the storytellers last night and met some new friends. haha. lol. hot guy alert studying in skku. XD but anw its been so long since i actually had fun by the hanriver even though i passed by it every week when i go to church XD
and since its thanksgiving in korea. i might as well blog about sth that recently made me so heart felt. im pretty sure those not into kpop had heard about the ladies code unfortunate car accident. well for some reason when i saw this news i was really shocked. first idols getting car accidents seemed like a pretty common thing and im not say i dont feel bad or anything but i think that this time round it was really major. ive nv seen ladies code real life before but i really liked their debut song as well as their choreography. they are the girl grp which is going to come out strong. i feel so sad for them.
adding on i read about ladies code and sadly eunbi who had passed away had been training for 7 years before they debuted last year. and she could only enjoy that short amount of glamour on stage. its so sad. and the news came yesterday that sadly rise had passed away because her body could not take it anymore. TT i saw the news just directly after church service ended yesterday. so much feels. too young. all of them. too young. will definitely pray for them. and will definitely remember them. s
idk why but this accident just affected me alot. its like idk why. maybe cos eunbi and rise are just 1 and 2 years older than me and i felt like i have so much i have not accomplished. leaving this world is just not the right time yet. i wanna accomplish the mission i have. so im gonna make a tribute for them. hopefully i will do it asap. gonna learn bad girl's choreography and make a cover. just a short one. hopefully it will turn out fine.
yup. so ok. going on a bit of the brighter side. sch has started and so far its been alright? i guess. ha. except for the korean classes. lol. being so stressed over them again. and i got kicked out for one of my media classes because the prof said its not suited for year 1 student. wth??? why didnt u put or mention it in the syllabus first. zzz and now i have to find another class to replace that 3 credit class. cries. so stressful. cos the next time to register for class is on thurs. and thurs i have kudt. omg.
and talking abt kudt. sigh. hiphop's choreography kinda disappeared and now it appeared. first rehearsal on 25th and idk whats gonna happen to us. hiphoppers gonna bring it out right? hwaiting! we can do this. and i feel like i gotten so much closer to the kudt kids and for week 1 of sch i just head over to the 3/6th floor every time class ended for me. lol. im a dt freak. but i gotta admit i like it. lol.
should start doing my supposed hw before school starts again~ haha. and read the book i borrowed. hehe. nice~ happy chuseok everyone~ spread the love~
Labels: chuseok, dance, friends, god, korea, ku, kudt, life, mooncake festival, school
Saturday, August 02, 2014
@ 12:22 AM
aint nobody but you
hello.
so its been quite awhile since i last blogged and yes these days im just spending my time dancing. nothing that i regret seriously. i feel that i have grew so much closer with my dt mates ever since i went for the summer mt with them. i just feel so blessed and everything. its like how should i phrase it. erm. because of the language barrier sometimes i still dont really understand what they are talking about and i dont wanna be like a so called burden on them because they have to like stop or pause or joke because it will be like spoiling the fun because u have to stop and explain it to me.
but then again i still feel more or less accepted by them. its so strange because i nv knew i could mix well with koreans. lol. maybe doing the same thing you like or dancing really makes a difference? haha. because u just communicate through your moves and there isnt much specific terms for it? XD im not sure. but i just feel so much closer to them now. most of them calling me unnie and noona and it just makes u feel like there is this responsibility that u got to take care of them. haha. XD im getting use to the term unnie and noona. and slowly liking it.
but people are leaving dt. makes me feel very blessed to get to stay there. it may not be the best dance team i have been in but the people there make me feel something else. theres this bond. its hard to break away. and being a foreigner there just makes u feel even more like staying there to prove that we can do it as well. u know. ha. idk. just thank god everything.
and yenny's new song. aint nobody. the moment i saw the mv being released i fell in love with it. not just the song but i think basically because of the dance? XD haha. its contempt. and i like contemp. i miss doing zaki style. its hard but its really beautiful. i really admire those who can do contempt, lyrical and modern. its amazing how those lines work and everything. anw thats not the main point.
its the lyrics. luckily this time round the lyrics are rather simple and i could understand without looking at the lyrics. yay to korean skills! talking about the person telling the lover no one else could love you as much as the person did. its sad. like how would u know if the person will love you like no else can? its hard and an unpredictable question. my very best friend. its experiencing sth like this right now. im sorry to all the guys out there but all the situations and stuff which i have experienced and all. i just feel like its so hard to trust guys. sorry i just offended people. sure guys can be an awesome best friend too. but beyond that line. its so hard. or is it just me with guys issues. idk. but i tell myself that guys shouldnt be easily trusted. thats my logic now. if u dont wanna get hurt anymore.
i feel so freaking emo right now. arghhhhh.. roomie is not sleeping at dorm today. emo ttm. just pray that tmr will be better day.
누구도 나처럼 널 사랑하지 못해
Labels: ain't nobody, dance, friends, god, kpop, ku, kudt, life, love, wg, wonder girls, ye eun, yenny
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
@ 3:47 PM
디티~
hello.
so i have just came back from a 3 days 2 night mt with kudt and for the first time round i had so much fun in a mt. haha. i think it was because we kinda already knew each other back then and now its just getting closer to each other. haha.
anw we gathered and left for naksan around 12pm and by the time we reached there it was around 330pm and my grp was grp 5 and there was donggeun sunbae, hyerin sunbae, aya, jiyoon, nuri, bomi, hyerin and eunseok who only came in day 2. before we headed off to eat bbq outside of the chalet like place, we were started discussing what our grp is going to do for the special talent stage performance thing. hyerin sunbae was saying that last time other groups mainly dance but then its more of like not super interesting because we were already dancing so yea. we were trying to think of sth else to be out of the box. haha. and then jiyoon came up with this gta skit. its like one of the section from snl korea and it just so happened i watched that part before. its seriously retarded but super funny.
so my role was to intimate this 16th hip hop senior of ours and its like because every time when he dances, he will have his signature movement of his and then i followed him and lol. the most joke thing was because everyone knows that movement its super funny. ok. i know im the only one knowing whats going on but IT WAS SUPER FUNNY. also cos he was rather tanned they made me wore a black plastic bag. nth got to do with racism but it was for better depiction. and the funny part was he threw a pillow at me to stop LOL. but then again we thought we could have gotten the first place or sth but in the end we were actually tied between 2nd and 3rd but we lost in a freestyle battle so ended up with the 3rd place. but come on! we were against donggyu, lol i swear he can freestyle so well. WHAT IS HE MADE UP OF??
anw~ it was really fun and then we went back to our room and donggeun sunbae made this very nice fried rice for us. lol. and we played drinking games. i think every time i drink with koreans i will learn new games. i think this game that i learnt its called 'assa~~! neo neo!' i think i like to play this kind of game. its like 'bunny bunny' but more confusing cos it involves more than 1 person. OK. FRENS I NEED TO TEACH U HOW TO PLAY. we can drink sprite and play lol. and then after that ppl keep losing and their faces got kinda red we decided to rest and continue eating. lol. we ate so much. 2 days time i ate so much meat i wanna die.
and then i cant remember what happened but oh yea! we went to the beach at night and i was like omg yay!!!! BEACH~!!! SEA~!! i just have this thing for beaches~ ^^ so cooling and nice. and the sand was really sandy and hyerin sunbae treated us to icecream hehe. after that we also saw other ppl playing those fireworkds kind of thing. those kdrama always show the koreans playing with the fireworks. haha. yup. wished i played with it too XD
after that we went back and actually the other ppl were doing cypher and we didnt want to do the jam with them so we went back and suddenly decided to dance amongst ourselves. lol. jiyoon tried to make me do the front part of something by girls' day and it was so funny. and then for some reason we did good night kiss also and then jiyoon was like so amazed that i can do so many kpop dance and she was like keep telling the ppl who came into our room that i can do good night kiss and i think i danced like 5 times because of her TT and then ever since that there was like a 10th hip hop senior who now just recognised me as 'good night kiss' lol. yup. i cant really remember what happened but i got tired and tried to sleep. didnt work out very well. lol.
the next day after all of us woke up from our not very successful sleep last night, we went to the beach. haha. it was so sunny and hot but the sea breeze made that up. it was really windy and then jiyoon and i actually didnt want to go into the sea yet but after chilling on the beach for about an hour later we went inside. lol. as soon as i went into the sea ppl noticed that i was dry they came and attacked me and dunked me. LOL. dam shit. namjoo sunbae was like good night kiss! and threw me inside. and then another time daehwan sunbae dunked me for like 3 times straight LOL. omg. dam shit. and then swallowed quite a lot of sea water. haha. but it was so nice to swim around and splash water at people. lol. after that we went back to chalet to wash up. haha.
after that we all gathered and there were told that we were supposed to have a cooking competition with the other groups and the most delicious one will be picked by the 3 seniors. we ended up cooking japanese maggie mee and german hot dogs with doritos and pistachios LOL
we didnt win sadly but other groups came and tried ours. haha. its like voted informally as the best thanks to the maggie mee which aya brought from japan ^^ hehe. and then after that i katalked yuna to bring over some when she comes to korea in august yay! after that started playing drinking game again but i was like bleh. lol. i still dont like to drink but i played awhile and the game was getting so violent but funny. lol. another new game learnt. so i left and went to the other grp and checked out what they were doing. they were making yoghurt soju lol. i gotta admit yoghurt soju and lemonade soju are my favourite. and they mixed the proportion really well. hahaha. yoghurt soju~ lalalla.
after that they made us do cypher and jiyoon told the senior to play good night kiss just for me LOL WTH i taught eunseok and jiyoon how to dance after we came back from the beach and then i pulled eunseok to come and dance with me. LOL. so funny cos eunseok is just so cute. lol. this guy. 1996 TT and then was like yea. the seniors started dancing to their old songs and after awhile some of us just escaped back to our room. lol. man... idk how to improve on my freestyling and tmr we going to have this thing call ggumsaessak. its like a impromptu dance u have to choreograph. omg.
went back to the room and spotted nuri who escaped long ago. LOL. and then after awhile jiyoon and saeyeong came into the room and we ended up doing kpop dance again. LOL. after that 2 of them wanted to go and join the rest in playing drinking games so it ended up with just me and nuri left. we decided to just share and cook a packet of ramen and dumpling. and then while we just talking and waiting for the water to boil suddenly sungah sunbaenim came into the room and she was like 아둘이연애중이야? 미안해! and left. lol i swear she can just be so funny sometimes. and then after that jiyoon came back and ate with us.
i actually slept more than the first day as ppl were more playing in the big room as compared to the smaller rooms and then yea. woke up the next morning with very little sleep but got to pack and tidy and clean the room. and then after washing up i suddenly heard this zehhhhhhh sound. then i was like what is that sound. but i was still in the very groggy state and then i turned around and saw nuri using the electronic shaver. LOL. for the first time after dk how long i heard that sound and i was looking at nuri. and nuri also had that groggy state looking at me and i almost burst out laughing. ok that was hard to explain but it was just a funny sight.
reached back ku about 3pm and had a late lunch with jiyoon and saeyeong before heading back to the dorm. woa. finally felt like i had a proper meal after 2 days. hahahaha. after all it was a really enjoyable experience and yup! time to rest! hehehe.~ tmr ggumsaessak hwaiting! ^^
Labels: beach, dance, friends, god, ku, kudt, mt, summer mt
Wednesday, July 02, 2014
@ 11:52 PM
4.09 계속 열심히 공부하자~
hello
well today was a rather surprising day for me because i woke up forgetting the fact that its result day and i only realised it when i saw the 300+ messages in the media katalk room. and i was like oh yea and so i checked it and babam~! lol. im really really surprised for my intro to media. i got an A+ like wth??? im pretty sure i didnt put in that much effort but oh yea... i think its just a sign for me to study harder for my next media compulsory module. hehe wow. im really happy for my results. esp for my sapyo class. i got a B+ can u believe it? ^^ my korean essay class~ yay! and i have been complaining and worrying for my entire sem on that module. guess its better than what i expected. truly thank god for that. ^^
and today i learnt that actually there are really many ppl out there struggling to live their own life. we are just young ppl turning into adults and most of us are still blessed to be funded by our parents and some already trying to rely on themselves. its nv easy and i just pray for those out there. sometimes we just have to comply to some ppl because we need their financial support. sometimes we just have to break this relationship with the ppl u loved just so that u can do what u want. i mean i wouldnt say i mature early or anything but i truly believe that we should study and do what u want to pursue coming from my own experience. its nv easy and u are not always given the opportunity and im the lucky fews who get to do that. i mean. try. fight for it. if it doesnt work out. make it work out.
and dont judge.
Labels: friends, god, korea, ku, life
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
@ 11:40 PM
the world is full of roses
hello.
alive not dead. still dancing. awesome hiphop practice tonight ^^ and for once i felt like im living again. lol sounds like im exaggerating but no. i miss those times when my stomach muscles and back ache and the next morning im aching all over. i miss those bruises i get on my knee. those hardcore training sessions before a performance. i miss eating supper with dancemates. oh man. this is life in a dance society~ gotta love it. its just the start. gonna get tougher but never giving up~ ^^
gotta thank god for reminding me that hes beside me. like i havent been to church for the entire month of april i think and today while waiting for yijae to come i was sitting alone infront of woodang hall and got approached by a lady from church. she asked me to stop by the church near ku and of course u know im just sometimes annoyed by people asking me to go to church when i actually go to one. but then every time when i say i go to the yeoido church i just felt kinda guilty because i havent been going to church for a long time dam it. but yea. its just god's way of reminding me that i need to go to church asap. LOL. yup.
oh yea and i got 84 for my eng linguistic class. i thought i got a high score but when my lecturer said a lot of people are getting 90 and over and even 100 i was like freaking sad for a moment. its like gosh. i think here in ku is much more competitive than sg. lol. not gonna lie. korean students studied like mad for their suneng exams before they got into uni. and my grammar class i got a 23.5/25. sigh. its a high score but.. dam it. this is absolute grading and to get A+ i need a 95. gosh. and 1.5marks... annyeong TT lalalala. hwaiting.
i wanted to talk abt the sewol incident but im freaking tired right now. omg. maybe tmr or sth. good night peeps~
춤이라는 재능을 나에게 주셔서 감사합니다~!
Labels: dance, god, hiphop, ku, kudt, love, rose, school
Monday, March 24, 2014
@ 11:28 PM
소현이야~ 여정이~ 고마워!!!
hello.
so today is finally over. idk why i was just so stressed out and felt so much burden whenever i have this thinking and writing class. i think its because im taking it with so many koreans who lived overseas and they are just good in korean u know.
presentation is finally over and i really thank god for blessing us with an A grade. i think if not for the sohyun and yeojeong, i wouldnt have received an A. so i really thank god for placing me in this team. i really screwed up during the q and a questions i think. like i think its my worst q and a session. argh. how should i say it. i speak terrible korean when im nervous. LOL. yes. ok. like they didnt even understand what i was saying. GOSH. so embarrassing~~~~ TTTTTTTTTT
so yea. this gives me another reason to really practice and brush up my korean not just in speaking but writing as well. its really gonna be hard to survive in this module if i dont care about it and just let it go or sth. like i need to pay more attention in my speaking and writing. i think its my drama... ever since school started i havent been able to watch dramas and i used to be really good at korean listening but now im just like 'what?' when koreans speak too fast. shit. my korean skills....
anw i just wanna thank god for really placing me in such a wonderful team. felt so blessed to be part of them and furthermore all of us are believers in god and i just pray that our friendship will go a long way ^^
and its really awesome because today it just so happened to be kang ssaem's birthday. omg. i miss him so much x__x i will always remember what he told me! hwaiting! and i also received kudt's sms that i passed the first round of application and im gonna head over tmr for the dance interview cum audition tmr. god. pray for me~ really wanna dance for the school team again~
oh man i just read abt the news of the plane. its.... sad. like. idk. suddenly so many people's live were lost. i cant imagine how the families of those passengers are feeling. sigh. im just gonna pray for them. praying that they will be able to get through this hard times. omg.
its amazing how people of the same belief come together and pray.
Labels: dance, friends, god, korea, ku, kudt
Monday, February 10, 2014
@ 9:34 PM
proud of this
hello.
so i have officially graduated from snu lei and well its really emotional for me. hmm... ive learnt so much stuff from there and its like im leaving the sch too so more or less im sad. of course. 1.5 years in snu and gonna move over to ku in like 3 weeks time. sigh~ hate moving.
anw im gonna prepare for like my eng placement test??? apparently i have to take eng classes even if im from an eng speaking country so yea. sigh. gonna do my best in it. LOL. idk why i feel so jittery for this test. i think cos its been 3 years since i last have gp lesson? idk T^T omg. i need to read books~ and i feel like ever since i started jc i havent been exactly reading books. fiction non-fiction but i have been reading a lot of fanfics. LOL. but i got to admit some of the fanfic writers have good english. so thats not a big problem but now im reading this book called 'the tipping point' i bought it in 2012 i think in korea. but i havent been actually reading it... LOL. and ever since i gound out that i need to take the eng placement test im continuing from where i have left out. its pretty interesting.
level 1 to 6~lol i have grown so much
i just started the 100happydays challenge on instagram and hopefully i will be able to do it for 100 days straight. lol. yea oh yea! i finally got my topik level 4 == thank God. i didnt get a level 5 but im gonna try it for the last time in april~ most probably its gonna be my last time taking topik because they are gonna change the format in july and im not gonna take it anw. so yea. last chance for my advanced korean! hwaiting!
and please pray for me that the money my dad sent me will arrive soon omg. need to pay the school fees already T^T~~
Labels: friends, god, korean, ku, lei, school, snu
Thursday, February 06, 2014
@ 11:34 PM
김한빈
hello
so i did it. hehe. gonna be ego and brag about these but I GOT A FROM LEVEL 1 TO 6!! ㅋㅋㅋ i know~ other ppl get that as well but i kinda feel like its a kind of achievement for me ^^ seriously i'd nv imagined that i would be able to get 90 and above for the entire 6 levels. wow. the day when i began to browse snu lei site and then leading to me coming to korea and taking korean classes. everything really seemed surreal and really blessed and lucky to be able to accomplish one of my dreams. thank you. truly blessed.
tmr its gonna be my last day of sch in snu and im definitely gonna miss it. i'd nv regret any single time being there and i've made so much friends and really grateful for all the things that i'd encountered. gosh. feeling emotional now.
and recently these days ive just been receiving mails from ku international office and somehow its like god's way of telling me that i need to prepare myself for the real thing and slowly aiding me in going through the change? haha. i know. i feel really thankful for having dixxon in always helping me and i think he appeared in my life to not just help me in all these stuff but somehow a close hometown friend in a sense? we're not from the same country yes but at least we are close? haha. i mean distance wise. XD and its like there's someone there who is able to understand what i am saying without having to explain things. so yea~ ^^
hmmm... and its the time again. ppl leaving. yuna's leaving. T^T gonna miss her so bad. one of my closest friends i've made and i swear we are fated since forever. LOL. maybe in our past life as well? XD haha. not sure how im gonna handle it but hopefully things will go her way and she will be back with a scholarship and be able to study her grad sch soon! ^^
yup. feeling blessed.
Labels: friends, god, kim han bin, korea, ku, school, snu, team b
