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Saturday, November 10, 2018

Timing @ 8:13 PM

I never used to believe in timing when it comes to relationship until recent years. To me, all along the concept was if it happens, it happens. If it does not, it just means that two person are not fated with each other.

Since young, I grew up watching Taiwanese, Korean dramas and inside those shows, it was usually about two people realizing their love for one another. Perhaps it was due to the way I was brought up that caused me to feel that everyone will eventually find their ‘perfect’ match. Some people may find their perfect someone earlier whereas for others, they may appear really late.

When I first experienced my first break up, I honestly thought that I would never be able to trust and love another person again. It made me feel as if I was the one at fault and somehow I was the one who caused the whole relationship to fail even though I put in my utmost effort to keep it going.

2 years had passed and things did eventually get better but throughout that time I believe I was focusing on self-love. God was looking out for me and maybe that was why he let me fell in love with BTS. They came up with a whole series of loving yourself concepts that touched not only me and I dare say the whole world as well.

The lyrics of their songs soothed and comforted me, assuring me that I was not the only one out there feeling this way. I learned to have fun by myself and enjoyed spending time with my friends and family more. Penning down my thoughts of course made me clearer about what I want and I guess it also became a path that I want to pursue in the future too.

Sooner later, reality and the business of work caused me to widen the initial gap I had with BTS and loneliness crept in. I still love the seven boys but it was not as strong as before. Couples began to appear more and more within my vision and the next thing I knew, I downloaded a dating app. I did not want to meet people from Korea and so I set my setting in Singapore.

Time is one cunning element out there in the universe if you think about it.

I was interested in this particular guy and took the initiative to press the like button. Turns out he was pretty cool about it and accepted my offer to start a conversation. And the shocking thing was he’s from the JC as me and was also in the same geography class with me for 2 years.

But I had no idea who he was. Before people asked me why I had no recollection of this person was because it was a lecture style setting. I took H1 geography which meant that there was no tutorial. Just imagine a lecture hall with maybe 60 students? Seriously, what were the odds?

I hope I’m not jinxing it by saying all these out but until now we have been chatting straight for 3 weeks. That is honestly something worth noticing and I feel this similarities and difference between us that I thought was rather charming about this whole connection.

It made me wonder about timing and my initial thoughts were what a bitch. And made me think about what if this was one of the ways to make me return home.

Ever since my last trip back home, I feel even more attached to Singapore and the beauty that you can only see after leaving Singapore for a long time was hitting me. Korea is nice but like what I had said for a long time, it will not be the place that I want to settle down.

Home is still home.

I can’t be for sure if the chat will last until next year’s Chinese New Year and if it still does; I’m going to have to reassess my whole situation again.

Labels: decisions, home, korea, life, love, singapore

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