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Sunday, March 07, 2021

@ 1:38 PM

Every time I feel like if there is something big or something bothering me, I would just want to pen down my thoughts and kind of in a way.. arrange and sort things out.

Here I am, once again writing a new blog post almost after a year.

So, I am going back home. Back to where I was born, and back to where I was raised and where my loved ones are.

It was a huge decision but it took me a lot of courage to actually make that choice.

At the end of 2020, I thought that I didn't want to spend the last day of the year alone because its kind of sad and.. the pandemic hasn't been any better.

I was getting into Taiwan videos and thought maybe I want to meet the guys from there. loll so I downloaded this app and I happened to meet this guy whom I never thought would make me see the things I've never seen.

To elaborate what I meant, it was more about me falling out of my fangirling. I realise a lot more and how I also miss home. I miss receiving attention and I miss being with friends and just doing stupid and memorable stuff.

I do have friends in Korea but there's just a few close ones. We all have our lives and while we do gather time to time, there's just nothing like home I suppose.

I have spent 8.5 years in this country, I feel like I have a love-hate relationship but it is definitely something I did not regret.

I missed out many important events, timelines in my family and I hope that I can make that up once I go back. I want to just be at home.. though I would probably hate the nagging from my mum but its just something called love that I miss so much.

I would probably get tired from playing with my nephew and stuff but I want to be the aunt who is there, watching him grow. Graduating from pre-school to even getting enrolled into primary school and so on. It's all part of life and something that will never come again.

I guess I would complain about the hot and humid weather in Singapore but I'm so glad I would be able to wear flip flops, shorts and just get a cup of Koi anywhere.

There's a lot of things waiting for me and I believe the transitioning and getting use to the culture will take a while but I think I can do this.

Up to till now, I've always look back and wondered where did I get the freaking courage to just go to a foreign land to pursue something I'd love. It's scary how something/someone you love can make you do things so scary. lol.

Dam.. I was brave.

Anyway, I guess visiting my blog once in a while its pretty interesting. It gives me a sense of nostalgia and reminds me of who I really am. :)

about

you think you know me.

hi my name is Jou Teng and i think koreans are haawt. ;)
i like to eat man tou and drink bubble tea

I was an 엘프 (E.L.F.)
i still take note of 려욱 here and there

호야 from 인피니트 is my new bias. 111228. 리더규 is my 2nd. 3rd Official Inspirit ∞

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Dancing is what i like to do. and i want to continue doing it. To some people dancing is a sport, a way to express themselves but to others, it is LIFE.

I love Crescent and im and old girl of ACJC. I love AC Dance Society and my class. I love my og kids and i definitely love my own OGLS. MIZU AND ZURG!

I'm now living in Seoul, a student of Korea Uni Media Dept. I am also on here to fulfill the promise I have for myself. 17th Hip Hop of KUDT. KOREA UNIV DANCE TEAM.

Always keeping the faith.
항상신년울간직해라.

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