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Thursday, February 02, 2017

@ 2:51 PM

늘 계획 대로 안 이루어진 것 같다

hello.

next week i will be heading back to korea and this 1 mth trip back home felt so satisfying than before. i know i havent leave yet but i will just feel like i doubt i will have time to write how i feel during the weekends or when i head back to korea.

well, firstly i think its because i have been doing a lot of 'me' time. healing from the break up and finding out more about myself, what kind of person am i, what do i really want to achieve in life, what do i see in a guy and expect of, what i plan to do in this year.

sometimes i still look back almost 5 years ago and wonder if i really regret my decision in leaving singapore and heading to korea to pursue my own dreams. i was only 18 back then and i guess it was youth and curiosity which pushed me out to find out how the world was like. the phrase 'the grass is always greener on the other side', it seemed really green back then. i dont find it as green as before. oh how contradictory it is to say. XD haha. even i find it funny. theres always two side to each things. you will just want to see the pretty side and as time goes by u cant help but see the real ugly side. some part of me regrets the way i handled the situation back then but i dont really my decision. if i had not studied abroad i would never know the ugly side of korea and the pretty side of singapore.

next, i feel like i got to spend more time with my family. i feel like i have matured over the past relationship and it really did open up my eyes about family and marriage. family comes first no matter what and you just got to be grateful and cherish them. i love my dad, my mum and my sis. its interesting how u only appreciate what u have when you get older. will i ever get married at this rate? haha. i dont know. am i able to commit into a relationship again? good question to consider. then again, do i want to get married?

i also get to meet my close friends. those ive met since pri sch and sec sch and everyone is pursuing and trying to find their own path. im glad i have those friends, those who u get to go through thick and thin and share the joy and happiness with each other. those who may be miles apart and living in a different time zone, you just get together and rattle on forever like old times. ^^

so, i have been trying to prepare myself to return back to korea. meaning the cold. lol. the bills which i have not paid while i am here. plus, i will have to re-contract my room with my landlord. which kinda sucks because 1 more year in that place. sigh... its cheap but the facilities and no soundproof wall. TT and i have to go to the telecomm shop to ask them to make a new nano sim card for me so i can finally use my iphone. lol. and possibly go to emart and stock up on some food so i wont have to go out. and i want to clean my room again. throw out some useless stuff and recycle some clothes. ive also been thinking what to do with my costumes from my past performances... wear them during halloween? LOL. but by then it will be super cold. anw, i will think about it when im back there.

for now, i shall just enjoy singapore air and my bed. haha.

Labels: family, friends, korea, life, plans, singapore, thoughts

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